Miami Dice

I'm sitting at the ground zero of my local drinking habit, the place where it all began, ended, and started up again... The Brickhouse Tavern. I'm guessing they're playing a "late 90's" themed Muzak station. Every song has been kicking my memory in the shins, reminding me of when I first started in radio. Good times, a lot of memories, a lot of friends missing in action. (pause for a toast, and a damp napkin to wipe the blood from my lips.....) Music is like an auditory photo album, playing a call and response game with the corners of my mind. It's weird ya know, those memories start to itch after you locate them. As if they are making an effort to be remembered one more time. It reminds me of how my dog won't let me stop rubbing his belly, he'll just lick me and annoy me until I start back up, or until he falls asleep. Either way he wins. So do the memories. They're my new drinking buddies.

Me: Hey... who put the fun in funeral?
Kate: Probably the same guy who put "U" and "I" next to each other in suicide.

I haven't balanced the line between carefree (the old me) and careless (the current reputation.) But I think I'm getting a grasp on it. I'm picturing my old G.I. Joe figure, reminding me that knowing is half the battle. Sir yes sir, but why is it that all of my friends still look like Cobras.. Sir?

Enjoy the last few days of your summer. They could be the worst days or the best that you'll have. Swim at night. Sleep away the mornings (I'll let you know if you miss anything) and make secrets all day.

I've already put together a plan, I'm going to make it back, even if you don't believe it. Leave a light on.

Difficult takes a day... Impossible takes a week... I'm trying to wipe away this fear but I can't. I'm afraid to type/speak/think it because I know what follows. I'm just feeling an urgent need to express/share/upload every last thought in fear that I won't have the ability much longer. Maybe I'm just overwhelmed with all of this making up for lost time.

I've responded to a "call" and I'm waiting for confirmation, but skylines are adjusting. I hear they name Hurricanes in alphabetical order, how far down the list is my name? My Area code is taking a spin on a slot machine, numbers are spinning, where will they land? Either way, I'm about to notify the pit boss that I'm cashing in my chips, and I'll be needing my ID back.

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